Tuesday, May 28, 2013

a new chapter...

Get ready for something new and exciting... or maybe not.

It's also something that I'm embarrassed to admit to you.  But I'm admitting it anyway, along with all sorts of justifications and excuses.

The truth is, I'm going to start a new diet.

(and yes, that is a copy of Leonard Nimoy's "I am Spock")

I know.  Right after I posted about not letting myself get pulled back into dieting over on This is Not a Diet.

But, I've come up with several disclaimers and justifications...  Sigh.  I just really want to try something new! And I know that one of the reasons that I'm doing this now is because I do have an addiction to dieting.  

How do I know that this is an addiction?  Just the thought of starting this diet has helped me to stop feeling so shitty about my life.  It has helped me feel better about EVERYTHING, to calm down, and to feel more normal.  And I know that it's not normal for a diet book to make one feel so much better about one's life.

But right now, I desperately need to feel better, and if starting another diet is a way to do that, then that is what I am going to do. (alongside copious amounts of counseling and remembering to ask for help from family and friends when I need it, of course!)

Here are some more justifications, excuses, and ramblings:  I'm not going to call it a "diet" because for me that word is negative.  I'm going  to call it a "way of eating".  Therefore, I'm not dieting, I'm just eating differently than I used to.

Secondly, I'm going to give it a three month trial.  That seems like a long time for me, but I really think that it's the best way to do it, and the only way to give it a fair shot and see if it's sustainable.

Thirdly, I will NOT be weighing myself.  This way of eating will not be about weight loss.  It will be about health first and foremost.  It will also about getting smaller, not gonna lie, because I would love to get back into (and stay in) my 14's.  But my number one goal will not be about the numbers.  There will be no start weight for these three months.  Only a start picture.

Fourthly, I have chosen a way of eating from a book that I had lying around and had never cracked open before a few days ago, and it does seem to be VERY healthy.  And there is no counting or tracking involved.  It's one of those "food list" ways of eating.

Finally, I will be reviewing this here on the blog, which will give me a reason to blog more regularly.

I'm taking lots of notes!  This will be a
serious, journalistic review, y'all.

I'm reading the book right now, and will be back to blog more about it once I'm finished.

I've decided to start after the LSAT.  The LSAT is June 10th.  I will begin this way of eating "officially" on June 16th.  Until  then, I'm back to tracking semi-regularly on My Fitness Pal.

It's definitely not a current fad diet; it's from several years ago.  Please don't confuse it with "The Sonoma Diet", because "The New Sonoma Diet" really is less restrictive, so I have read.  It's not low carb, low fat, or low anything (except junk food - none is allowed, which will be tough for me!).  No counting or tracking required.  I will get  into more specifics soon.

Okay, so that's where I'm at.  I wanted to share this with you guys, instead of beating myself up over being sucked into another diet.  I'm only human.

I think that this will make for some interesting blogging...  Meanwhile, I will be back soon for an update on my 5K training (which is of course, not going to plan).

progress pic - 5/28/13

Thanks for understanding about this latest development!  


Rachael said...

Glad it's different than the Sonoma diet that I read about online. That other one I read about sounded almost exactly like South Beach. The New Sonoma Diet sounds a lot more reasonable. Good luck to you. Never hurts to try new things as long as they aren't going to hurt you.

Jessica said...

I totally understand reaching out to something that makes you feel better. Even if that something isn't necessarily healthy. From what it sounds like to me, this could be just fine for you. No tracking, healthy food, no weighing...sounds great! Now, it just needs to be said that it's dangerous to use an addiction to soothe bad feelings. I know you know this, but I had to say it. Honestly though, you have a really good grasp on yourself and what to stay away from and what's ok to try. I love this quote from Joyce in Normal Again, "We have all the faith in the world in you. We'll always be with you. You have got a world of strength in your heart. I know you do. You just have to find it again. Believe in yourself."

Mariebop said...

I've found that it's hard to not diet... However, I'm also addicted to junk food. So changes need to be made. You know I'll support any decision you make. You are the only person who knows what's right for you. Good luck with your new adventure.