I'm back on My Fitness Pal full time for a bit. Not sure how long I will last this time, but it's become clear to me that my binges have gotten out of control.
I'm going to start by doing something that I've never truly done before. Not change anything about how I'm eating except tracking.
In other words, for the first few days back on My Fitness Pal, I am going to track my food, but not really change how I'm eating currently. Just to see how I've been treating myself, to help explain to my head exactly how I've gained so much weight lately. Not to beat myself up over it or anything, but to just get a grasp on the situation.
I started yesterday, and I will go until Sunday night. On Sunday night, I'm going to evaluate four days of my eating and see where I can make the easiest changes first, and start with those.
Then I will make a new change every week or so until I'm eating a "normal" amount of food, and better overall quality of food. Right now, I'm way above average.
Here are yesterday's results:
And here are today's so far (I have not yet consumed dinner or any nighttime snacks):
I binged yesterday, and I ate a lot of fast food today (though no actual binge yet, hoping to not binge tonight).
So these are the honest numbers of how I've been eating the past few weeks. Very little fiber because I'm not eating many fruits or vegetables. Lots of carbs, fat, and sodium because I'm eating a lot of processed snack foods. Lots of calories in general because of overeating.
I wasn't exactly in denial about this, because I knew that my pants were getting smaller and that my binges were getting more frequent. I just want to start tracking again, judgement-free and honestly.
Hopefully My Fitness Pal will be a good tool to re-learn healthy portions and foods. Baby steps, though. One small change weekly (-ish) will get me to where I want to be.