Because in 2011 and 2012, I took TONS of pictures of myself, because I was thin and liked my body for the most part. I still had complaints, and was still not "where I wanted to be" with my weight. But I had more body confidence than I had had in years, so I jumped in the pics at family events more than ever.
I went to a fun lake day with all of my work family earlier this week, exactly 4 years after going on a fireworks date with Stacey. So my Timehop pics on that day and the pictures taken of me that day look DRAMATICALLY different.
But I am not ashamed of my current size, nor do I believe that I am any less beautiful or worthy. In some ways, I actually like my body more now than I did then.
I appreciate it more, really accept that it's the only one I will ever get, and am working hard towards making peace with it.
Does this person:
look like she's having a better time than this person? :
Is this couple:
cuter than this couple?
Not at all.
Is this body:
more beautiful or worthy than this body?
And I'm not perfect with my self love or body confidence yet. When I first saw those thin pics of me, I felt a little crappy until I saw that I was just as happy if not happier in the present day pics.
Recovery is really helping me to love and accept myself as I am, body and all. I may not truly believe that my current body is fine as it is, but I do believe that I am fine as I am. The body love will come in time. I hope.
How are you working towards body confidence this summer?