I HATE that I do this. I'm sorry that I do this. I am trying to stop doing this. But I admit that I do in fact objectify women.
I find myself constantly comparing my own body to those of the women that surround me.
Whenever I walk around campus and see another female student, my mind immediately compares her body to mine. Most of the time she comes out on top (better body than mine, wish I had _____ like her) but very occassionally I will "win" (worse body than mine).
And this is a habit that is so ingrained inside of me that I don't know how to fix it. But fix it I will.
I have spent many hours of my life (probably days or weeks if all the time were added together) complaining about how women are more than just their appearance. How women are strong, intellegent people who need to STOP worrying about their appearance as if it's the only thing that matters.
And yet, I myself am one of the objectifyers. And it's WRONG. And it STOPS now.
Like I said though, it's been something that I've been doing for such a long time now that it will be hard to quit. I will have to make a huge effort to stop worrying about what other women look like, and to stop the compare and contrast game. I recognize that it's extremely wrong and extremely hypocritical to have such a nasty habit (I would hate to think that the women that I am judging are looking back and judging me, too, but that would be karma wouldn't it?).
When did this start for me? Honestly, it began when I was in the deepest part of my eating disorder days, around age 19. I went to the Pro-Ana websites back then. Yep, I did. I followed the "tips", looked at the "thinspiration", chatted with other "anas" and "mias". One tip was to constantly compare your body to other women's bodies in order to not want to eat. Yeah, it's a disgusting "tip". But that is a part of my history that I wanted to share with you all. Eating disorders are illnesses. No doubt about it.
Today I started to do something that is helping me with my objectifying issue. Every time I started having thoughts about a fellow female's body, I immediately switched the focus to her insides. "I wonder what her major is?" "I wonder what she likes to do outside of school?" that sort of thing.
Again, I'm sorry about this. But it's true. I have been objectifying women for years. And it STOPS NOW. I'm done playing the comparison game. Moving on to playing the "in it for mySELF" game.