Anyway, today as I was completing my fourth final (one more to go and then this semester is OVER), I had an epiphany that I knew I would have to share with you guys.
And it came to me in a crazy hypothetical question.
"If I knew that it was physically impossible to lose any more weight, and that I would have to accept my body looking exactly as it looks now, would I still work hard at improving my nutrition and exercise plan?"
...and I've actually had to consider my answer.
We all know what my answer SHOULD be.
Of course, it SHOULD be "Yes, obviously I would keep on working on my health even if I knew that my body wouldn't get any smaller."
But I honestly don't know. I feel like I still am mostly motivated by weight loss.
This is probably why I failed at maintaining my low weight of 144 a year ago: I want to lose weight.
Do any of you guys believe in the law of attraction? I definately do. I don't want to get too new-agey on you guys, but bear with me while I talk some LOA stuff for a bit.
It's my belief that if I keep on wanting weight loss, I will keep on attracting NEEDING to lose weight. I need to change my goals around.
Instead of wishing for weight loss, I need to wish for optimal health and strength. These are thoughts that I want to put into the universe, not thoughts of weight loss. I always want to get healthy and strong, but I don't want to always want to want to lose weight. Does that make sense?
Anyway, yes, I still have at least 15 more pounds until I get to my goal weight. BUT, I'm going to start focusing on health first. Hopefully, weight loss (FAT loss, anyway) will be a side effect of my healthy lifestyle. I'm hoping that by changing my focus, I will be better prepared to maintain my weight loss this time around.
|#1 Goal = health!!!|
#2 Goal = strength!!!
#3 Goal = get smaller.
P.S. The semester is almost over, so I should be able to post a bit more regularly again soon. I miss my blogging!