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| my American Eage size 10 (2002) goal jeans |
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| BTW, I keep this ticker at the bottom of my blog |
I was down 2.2 pounds last week. CRAZY, I know! I'm back down to 146.4, so I'm only 1.4 pounds away from being back to the weight I was in the latest progress pictures, and only 6.4 pounds away from my current goal weight. The only "problem" with my losing this quickly is that I really don't want to lose muscle, I want to lose FAT only. So I'm thinking about changing my MFP settings to lose .5 a week, since they are currently set to lose 1 pound per week, and I've lost more than 2 pounds a week 2 weeks in a row... I know, such a "problem".
Anway, back to the point of this post: My goal jeans.
After my awesome weigh-in on Sunday, I thought to myself "Surely I almost fit into my goal jeans now!" so I took them off the wall and tried them on. They. Would. Not. Go. Past. My. Thighs.
6.4 more pounds will not be enough to get them to fit. If there was some miracle way to ensure that all the pounds that I lose from here on out would come straight off of my upper thighs, butt, hips, and lower abdomen, then I would just adjust my goal weight back down to 135. HOWEVER, my face, shoulders, neck, and breasts do not want to lose any more weight. Seriously, all of those body parts are done losing weight, they are perfection, they are happy. And somehow, they are what keep on shrinking.
Therefore, I've made the decision to get rid of the goal jeans. Once I get down to my goal weight, I will buy some new goal jeans, ones that fit my body perfectly.
And yes, there was a point in my life that these jeans fit perfectly. But... I had an eating disorder and I was 20 years old. Eating and exercising in moderation, as well as aging 6.5 years, are both big factors in what my body has become. It's more pear-shaped than it was back then. I have more lumps (lovely lady lumps, mind you) and bumps that are shrinking, but not disappearing.
Learning body love and body acceptance has been a huge part of this journey for me. I love my body, and am even learning to love the parts that all women have been trained to hate (cellulite, stretch marks, extra skin, etc).
I'm going to put another swimsuit shot (recycled, you've seen it before) up here, just to prove again that yes, I may still be curvy and lumpy, but I'm happy with my body, and you should be happy with yours, too.
15 comments:
Good for you! I am so happy that you recognized that your "goal" doesn't always need to stay your goal as you are on your journey! Sometimes change is good. :)
@Stacy Marie- Thanks for the support! This is definately a journey.
Congrats on your loss! That is so awesome that you are having such good results with MFP. I never did get an offical WI this week for my first week on it. Friday I was 165 but I went out Friday night and ate/drank so I stayed away from the scale all weekend. I'd say that today I'm a good 165. So if that holds true that means I gained at least 1 lb. I'm going to try MFP for the second week and see how I do on it. Hopefully my body will start dropping weight. I need something to happen or else I might go crazy. I'm also going to try swimming this week and cardio kickboxing.
I did the warrior dash yesterday. I didn't wear my HRM but I'm sure I burnt a hell of a lot of calories doing it. I was starving all day after that run. Weird. Anyways - we'll see what this week brings me.
Great post!
@Amanda- WOW, you freakin' rock. The warrior dash sound intense, and you did it. Thanks for the exercise inspiration this morning!
I decided from the get-go of MFP that I would give it a solid 3-month try, since I keep quitting programs, and wanted to really give it a good shot.
Good for you Leah! I recently threw away a pair of capris from American Eagle that I got in HS. I'm just not built like a 16 year old any more. Like you said, I'm more pear shaped and curvy than I was then.
@Megan- Yay for getting rid of unrealistic clothes! I love that both of ours are American Eagle. That store is pretty skinny. Does it still exist?
That swimsuit pic says it all-- you are rockin' it!
Great post! add me to the list of people who have gotten rid of AE goal jeans... they really just don't fit my shape correctly even when I'm at my goal weight. I recently got a pair of jeggings (yeah, I know...) from Banana Republic that just look smashing on me, though. It's about dressing the (amazing) body you have, right?
@Angie- LOL about the AE jeans! I guess those just aren't for grown-ups. ;-) Congrats on the jeggings, I'm not sure if those would look good on my shape, but I will try some on some day just to check.
i just tried mine and there is NO WAY they will ever work! way too tight in the thighs, so they are now in the consignment shop pile. thanks for helping me realize that this pair may not be the right goal pair :)
Good for you on taking the plunge to get rid of those things from before. I need to do the same with a few things. I think getting a pair of goal jeans that fits the body one has now is a good idea. I think I am going to clean out my drawers of those "old" things too. They just depress me sometimes. Thanks for this post.
I think you made such a smart decision. Goal clothing can be such great inspiration, but when you've come this far--who cares if some jeans don't fit? Buy a fabulous pair that do, and flatter your body perfectly. You look smoking in that bathing suit pic, by the way!
@Melissa- I'm glad that my post helped you! Find a new pair of goal jeans that is more realistic, or even better, wait until you get to your goal weight and then find some pefect jeans for you new body!
@Rae- Great job cleaning out the drawer! You can do it. :-)
@Vanessa- Thanks for the "smokin hot" comment! And I will get a nice pair of flattering jeans when I get to my goal weight. I'm looking forward to it.
Smart move ditching the jeans. I've held onto goal jeans for years and have gotten so mad at myself when they never would fit right. How very wonderful of you to realize how disrespectful to yourself it is to hang onto something like that. Its good that you are kind to yourself. You look lovely!
I LOVE your blog!!!!! It really speaks to me and I am so glad I found it.You look fantastic!!
@Megan- Thanks for saying that! You are right, this is definately about self-respect.
@tan- I'm glad that you found it, too! Stick around, there is going to be a giveaway next week. :-)
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