Wednesday, October 26, 2011

When STRESS and other emotions creep in...

Howdy, blog-readers!  I hope that life is going swimmingly for each and every one of you, and that none of you are going through any stressful situations whatsoever.

Me...?  Not so much.  I have had a lot of stress to deal with lately.  Other emotions such as sadness and anger have been coming out, too.  This is all due to a highly personal family situation that I cannot discuss on here, but I thought that I could discuss how it's affecting my healthy lifestyle.

Have you ever been so stressed out by a situation that you actually are unable to eat?  That the thought of food literally makes you ill? 

This has happened to me a couple of times in the last week.  I've actually moved past the so-upset-I-want-comfort-food and into so-upset-I-cannot-eat category, which has NEVER happened to me before.

Because I know that my body needs the fuel, I have still been eating enough calories every day, but some days it's a struggle.  And some days all I want are crackers and bananas, and so that's what I eat.

I am still tracking, following the No Junk Food Challenge, and exercising daily.  These things are keeping me sane, honestly.  I'm not reverting to ED-behavior or anything along those lines, I'm just trying to focus on doing good things for myself and my body instead of putting all of my energy into the family drama.

I'm suffering at work and at school because of this crap.  Today I honestly just want to go home and crawl under the covers and only come out when life is good again.  Unfortunately, just because one part of my life has gone to hell (family), the rest of my life (work, school, other relationships) doesn't stop to give me some time and space to deal with it. 

"When it rains, it pours."  This phrase is becomming more and more true for me.  I'm just hoping that when the rain lets up, there will be a beautiful rainbow to give us all hope.

Anyways...  I'm hanging in there.  I will keep up with my plan to get to a normal BMI by Christmas.  I will keep on trying my hardest at work and in school.  I will keep on nurturing the good relationships that I have with family, friends, and Stacey.  I will keep blogging.

Thanks for reading!  I will be back on Saturday to report the next results to my "Lose 12.6 By XMas" challenge.


Cyn said...

i once had an issue eating after a very painful break-up -- it happens. we are emotional eaters -- whether we are actually consumming food or not. we manifest our emotions through food. sometimes not eating is the only thing you can control when life seems so out of control?
i hope things work out -- family issues are the hardest.

Mariebop said...

So sorry to hear about the family issues. Everyone's life has periods of hard times. However, life has a way of balancing itself out. Just hang in there and try to focus as much as you can on the positive parts of your life. It will get better.

Megan said...

Hoping everything gets better for you! Good for you for staying on track though!

Stacey said...

Lots of hugs, Leah. I hope everything works out.

Jennifer said...

sorry to hear it's pouring. Praying for you and your family situation. Glad you're taking care of yourself and using healthy outlets (friends, exercise, sticking to goals, work, school). Don't let the drama consume you.