Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Taking care of myself.

I just finished ordering a bunch of self-care products.

This is not something that I am naturally inclined to do, but I had a cool thought recently:

What if I focus on improving all of the other aspects of myself besides my eating?  What if instead of spending all of my self-improvement energy on ending my binges, I worked on the other stuff, like hygiene, style, reading more, expanding my social horizons, visiting more museums, seeing more local theater, etc.?  These are all things that I need to work on, and most of them are way more fun than focusing on the binge behavior (which I'm all set to see professionals for an assessment tomorrow).

To start, I decided to get new underwear and new face products.

I ordered these, plus my 2 free pairs from Torrid.  They should fit pretty perfectly, as Torrid's size 3 is for a size 22 lady such as myself.  And yes, that does say Batman Hipster Panty, and I did order one thong, my first in years.

I also went on Amazon and ordered some nice looking organic face products along with some mascara that I've been meaning to buy for months since I ran out (Mascara is my favorite beauty product - Sometimes I will wear nothing but face lotion and mascara!):



I already have a day cream that I love by Neutrogena (It's not organic, but I don't really care about that.  I mostly wanted organic products because it feels fancy and like I'm really treating myself!).

As for the other non-binge-related self-improvement goals, I will start working on them, too.  I don't want to do too much at once, but another goal that I've had for a long time is getting Stacey and my apartment in order.

We moved in June 2014.  I broke my ankle a month later, so what hadn't been done yet still basically hasn't been done.  There are many walls with no pictures on them, or with pictures that should be hung up just leaning on them on the floor.  There is a massive area in our bedroom which holds a bunch of still un-sorted stuff.  And we have not been the best housekeepers during out stay here.

I started last week making it a goal to keep the living room and kitchen clean and tidy (probably a normal/regular goal for most people, but for me it doesn't come naturally yet even though I'm 30) and I have succeeded.  It's only been 10 days or so, but keeping those rooms clean already feels normal.  Now whenever I eat, I have to immediately clean up, no more dishes in the sink.

Goals for this week:  Clean bathroom, wash dogs and their bedding/blankets, maintain clean kitchen, living room, and bathroom.

Ahhhhhhhhhh.  That feels nice to get stuff accomplished, and to work on self-improvement that has nothing to do with my eating disorder. 

What have you accomplished this week?

2 comments:

Enuf Already said...

Hi, I think your plan is excellent. I thought about focusing on something other than getting healthy to help me. I think havinge these short term goals can give you a feeling of accomplishment. So, you go Girl!

I enjoy your blog and read it often. This is my first time commenting, however.

thevegegirl said...

Looking forward to reading about your journey - I came here from your MFP link and I can totally relate. I am tired of spending so much mental energy on food! I have so little sense of personal style and just this weekend I thought 'I wonder what would happen if I redirected my food thoughts to style thoughts and started working on dressing/looking better despite my size.'